A Good Way to Do It

I'm stressed. And the killer part of it is that intellectually, I know that I don't need to be. I wish I could get my brain to take over for whatever it is (soul? heart? nervous system?) that is currently running things.

A job. I graduate in December, and I need to get one. In an ideal world, I would have one lined up and all set to go for January. Our current economic world is hardly the ideal one though, and I have heard stories of long job searches. Months. A year. This is where my throat usually starts to constrict. Air... air...

My brain tells me that laying awake at night, worrying, is silly. I am intelligent and personable - I will get a job. My husband has a job; we will not starve if my job search takes a little while. Life is more than my resume - my resume in fact, has always taken a back seat to my life. I like it that way. Rather than tossing and turning, I should be sleeping. Blissfully. My life is a good one, and if I choose not to wring my hands over this job search, well, all the better for that.

Only my brain, as I mentioned earlier, is not in charge. And so I stress. There's so much I don't know about subject A and subject B... how will I ever find a job I am qualified for? And why aren't there more job postings?

I was sitting at my computer this morning, thinking these sorts of thoughts, when I came across two emails. One was from a cousin who had big news (engaged!), and the other was from a library school friend who had just found a job. I decided to take these two emails and let the happiness contained in each seep into me. If something good happens to someone I care about, well then it happens to me as well.

Do you have anything good going on in your life? I would love to leech off your happiness.