11.25.2010

Things I am thankful for today


Happy Thanksgiving! Or more likely, hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I woke up feeling grateful today, and decided to give some thanks electronically. In no particular order then (other than the order in which things came to mind):


A lively little boy who, although he still refuses to turn head down, constantly reassures me of his presence by kicking, stomping, stretching, and hiccuping. He's a big'un too; at my last appointment he already weighed 5 pounds, 5 ounces. Eat up, little piglet!

A sweet, supportive husband who gets nervous when I walk down stairs, and regularly sidles up to me to slip a hand over my belly. 

Good, supportive friends who give me insight, build me up, and are excited to share in my experiences.

An amazing family that does the same.

A warm, inviting little home that I have no fear of losing or being kicked out of any time soon.

A profession that I truly enjoy. Good co-workers, interesting work, and the ability to do that interesting work on a part-time basis after the baby comes. (Have I ever mentioned that? My plan to work part-time next year?)

Brooklyn! I am thankful for the beautiful, diverse borough that I live in. I discover new corners every week, see all sorts of interesting people all the time, and can't imagine living in any other part of New York.

Good health, both physical and mental. I know there are many who don't enjoy these things, and I give thanks every day that I do.

A past full of amazing experiences, and a future full of possibilities. We have so many ideas of the things we want to do, and places we want to go. And I don't see a baby as limiting us; I see him making things that much better.

11.15.2010

The country

    

 Went to Pennsylvania's Amish Country last weekend. Inexpensive fabric stores, bags of apples for less than a third of what I would pay in my own neighborhood, restaurants that close at 7pm, quiet country roads, cherry apple cider, well-behaved little boys in straw hats. Good stuff. Except for the restaurant hours. 7pm? Really?

11.11.2010

Marathon Sunday


Things tend to happen all around me - cool, New York things - and I'm either unaware of them or unmotivated to participate. I blame New York. There's way too much going on here. Festivals, readings, West Indian parades, concerts, shows, indie craft fairs, etc. It's overwhelming, and when faced with all these options I tend to throw my hands up in the air and go back to my normal, you-can-do-this-stuff-in-any-town-in-America activities.

Once in awhile though, I'm able to focus in on something and be a part of it. This past Sunday for example, I rolled out of bed, walked three blocks down the street, and watched the best runners in the world glide past me. The New York Marathon. Very cool.

The course runs through my neighborhood, and thanks to the helpful marathon website I was able to time my arrival on the sidelines to match the arrival of the first male runners. Olympians, world record holders; I stood on 4th Avenue for a good 15 minutes waiting for them, and they flashed past me on a wave of "wooo!"s from the crowd. I got the chills. I wondered if the great Haile Gebrselassie would win (he wouldn't).


Behind the pack of leaders came a steady trickle of great-but-not-the-greatest runners. Show's over, right? Funny, it turned out not to be. I loved watching the non-elites. Many had their native flags stamped on their racing pinnys. Lots of Brits, Norwegians, Frenchmen and Italians. Really?, I thought while Oliver sipped his McDonald's coffee next to me. These people came here all the way from Europe? Just for this race? Tall Germans with square jaws ran past in pairs. A man wore shorts made of the South African flag.

A number of runners had their names written on their shirts. Handwritten; they had done this themselves. I was confused, but only until the woman next to me started yelling "Go John! Vive le France, Phillippe! Keep it up Paco!" Ah. Hey, everyone needs a boost now and then.

Some hours later, we happened to be up near Central Park, where the marathon finishes. "The race is still going... should we go watch for a bit?" I asked. We hemmed and hawed, then found ourselves up on a hill overlooking the flood of finishing-somewhere-in-the-middle-or-maybe-towards-the-back runners. It was mile 24, and some of these people looked like they were just barely hanging on. One man made his way over to the sidelines and stopped, clearly hobbled by a leg injury. He was so close! But he clearly couldn't go on. He let out a frustrated cry and struck the fence in anger. He bent over for a few seconds, then started to walk forward.

One man ran by in a head-to-toe orange spandex bodysuit. Another wore a hot dog costume. Two runners - an older father and his 30something daughter perhaps? - held hands and seemed to each pull the other along toward the finish.

And the crowds kept cheering. Just as they had back in Park Slope, people yelled out for total strangers. I think this might have been my favorite part of the race, the whole "rooting for the best in all of us" thing. There is such pain and struggle involved in running a race like this... and so much joy and humanity in screaming yourself hoarse to show your support for these struggling, complete strangers.

11.05.2010

November


Yesterday was one of those rainy days, and looking out the floor-to-ceiling window I sit next to at work I could see an enormous curtain of mist. It looked almost like snow, although I knew it was too warm for that. Low 40s, Fahrenheit. Not just yet, winter.

For as long as I can remember, there have two months in each year that I hate: February and November. February is gray and slushy, with no immediate hope for spring and no leftover Christmas glow. November is also gray, and leafless and sluggish and not quite cold enough for beautiful, cleansing snow. Blecch. It doesn't help that November comes right after October, my favorite month. The whole month of October seems to be this big, flaming red and orange reminder to enjoy each moment. And November? It always says to me "hope you enjoyed those moments. They're past now."

This year is different, though. This year I'm enjoying November. Pleasantly surprising. I think it's partly due to the fact that I'm STILL excited about not being hot anymore (stop complaining about summer, Allison!), and partly because my current situation has completely upended the way I look at the cycle of the seasons. The end of fall, far from representing endings and darkness, means anticipation now. When winter - the great void - officially starts, I'll be mere days away from new life! A new beginning! Who needs daffodils and sunlight? Give me a snowy day. Howling wind. Wrap me in a blanket and hole me up in my apartment - I don't plan on going outside for longer than 30 minutes at a time.

Honestly, I could probably be spending this month in the flames of Hell and still feel good about it. Just two more months to wait! I'm so excited to see what (and who) he looks like. I can't wait to hear the sounds he makes while he sleeps. I look forward to picking him up while he cries and putting an end to the tears because my presence comforts him.